Laughter
Sweet laughter
Joy expressed from within to outer
With other souls
Normal
A normal day
No problem. No stress. A-ok;
Out of the unknown
That sensation of collapsing
The impression of terror
A pit feeling of attack comes upon you
It torments
no word, just tears
Throw up
Pass out
Disappearance
Vanish
cravings for a hug
to be hugged
search for comfort
seek air
Air to calm the nerves
Air to fill lungs
Air
The one substance that cannot be seen,
Essential
Fought for
You're in a room
A room with souls
try
pretend
put up a face
Fake
Fake a smile
Fake a laugh
Fake all of your human emotions
Feeling empty even though you're full
Sad when you should feel happy
Scared when you should feel safe
YOU FEEL
No words expressed
No thoughts. comprehended
No visual signs
just a FEELING
feeling that is almost
NUMB.
Numbing to the many joys of life
being trapped in an empty room
As though you've never seen the light
Hugging oneself
Singing
Laughing
Crying
unchangeable
it all still remains
Although you're in a full room
Although there is light
Although you're being hugged
Laughed with
Cried with
the scent lingers
It comes and goes as it pleases
And you don't have a say
